Happy New Year!

Happy New Year everyone! It has been a good year for me, but I still have a sour taste in my mouth. Looking back at it now, I wish I did more with myself. Sure, I have been working freelance and making enough money to pay for student loans and a few extra things, but all I know is that I good have done more. I could pushed myself to make more art and improve, but complacency has left me bored and uninspired often times. I want to make more friends, but my self-esteem holds me back and I end up going back to old shy habits where I am most comfortable, and alone.  I want to get out more and travel, but having fun seems to require money these days and I am such a penny pincher.  I know I could be paid more for what I do, but I don’t push it because a small amount of money is worth more to me than nothing.

I am writing this not as self-pity, but as a motivator for myself to get my ass into gear and change things for the better going into the New Year. I know, it seems silly now to realize this when I could have started yesterday or a few months ago, but reading all this posts here on Facebook about how great 2013 was for many people makes me want to make 2014 like that for me.  It’s time for a change, and I am going to make it a great one, so that next year when 2015 comes I can tell everyone how successful I have become through sheer hard work and faith.

That’s my New Year’s resolution, and I am going to make it count.